Oct 3 Believe

31 day 5 minite challenge

But these are written that you may believe and that by believing you may have life in His name!

These verses from John are so dear to me. They remind me of a season 3 years ago when I had two kids, lots of anxiety, few deep relationships, hard marriage, fixer-upper house, no sleep, lots of desperation...and God in His kindness put me in a Bible study prayer group with other ladies who were real with me--had just as many problems and messes that weren’t getting better week after week and who prayed--like really prayed--and a Bible study on John where we experienced the Lord breathing life and giving living water to our weary lives.

I’m still super messy, my problems ongoing, my need just as great…

And my faith deeper, my gratefulness great  for other dear sinning saints who walk the road with me.

Grief

When my loved ones grieve there's nothing to do to make it better. Like, normal stuff--fixing food, caring for a child, working out logistics--usually we say, "Whew! There! Glad that worked out. I feel happy."

But your dad is still gone. 'Fixed' is not possible and there's no way to do that or even make strides or efforts toward it.

Oct. 1 Story

31 Day 5 Minute Challenge


Story is the last name of the dentist I've visited once in the last ten years. It was last Monday. I drove up in a rush with a car full of kids who all woke up early or didn't nap--a gift only on this particular day. Will ran out beaming to take the kiddos, "Only one teeny cavity!"

I had scheduled the appointments for my husband an I one after another without time in the middle for either of us to swap caring for the kiddos and all smack in the middle of nap and rest time.

I blew kisses, bounded up the steps...